the world around me makes me feel so small

am i alone now? in the depths of night, all are asleep and i am suffocated by the silence. am i lonely? in the crowd of nameless faces, and faceless names, one melts into the other, and the others melt into one. am i alive? a drug fuelled high, a sugar solution rushing through my veins. am i dead? my limbs numb, my thoughts are slowed. do i push people away, or do they push me? i have no control, the merged faces, mean nothing to me, i mean nothing. i am nothing.