Morgan's birthday party is on this Saturday. He plans for us to meet up at his house at 4.30, where we'll catch the bus to the city, and go K till 10. Then we'll go clubbing till 2am, then catch the bus to his house and sleepover. The following day will be a house party from 12 pm, dinner at Towers, then back to his house until late.
Now I want to go clubbing. Mainly because I haven't before.
Obstacles to this are my parents.
My parents arguments against:
1) It's too late at night
2) the environment/scene is bad
3) drunk people in the city at night are 'bad'
4) sleeping over at a male's house is bad
5) I might have sex with someone/do something that violates their morals, etc.
Arguments for:
1) I have money
2) + clothes
3) + transport there and back
4) the friends that I'm going with have already been introduced to parents
5) I will not drink too much (drinks are expensive >=[)
6) I will not wear provocative clothing
7) and we will be travelling in a group
8) there will be two other girls going
9) I really want to go
10) it's on saturday, and easter break, so I don't have work/study
11) I have driving lessons the next day, so I can't drink that much
My arguments against clubbing so that I won't feel bad if they vehemently say no, despite me trying to reason with them:
1) I have to spend money
2) I could be assaulted by a really slimy guy
3) I might have to look after drunk friends
4) I could wait until I'm older (when my parents are more used to me going out, and I'm not just fresh into uni)
5) I might get bored
6) heels are annoying
...
I can't win this can I.
>=(
Tuesday, 7 April 2009
Sunday, 5 April 2009
Perfume makes me happy
And I am feeling so very distressed right now.
Dream Fighter Pv
their newest vid i think. it's very cute.
Love the world: one of their biggest hits
Secret secret: I actually learnt this dance... ^~^
And now that our internet has been upgraded I can watch as many youtube vids as I want. yay!
Dream Fighter Pv
their newest vid i think. it's very cute.
Love the world: one of their biggest hits
Secret secret: I actually learnt this dance... ^~^
And now that our internet has been upgraded I can watch as many youtube vids as I want. yay!
i wonder...
why people who take drugs will advocate drugs to non drug takers?
AND
why people in relationships advocate coupledom to singles?
because I've done both, and i don't see what's so great about either
AND
why people in relationships advocate coupledom to singles?
because I've done both, and i don't see what's so great about either
love list
people who love me:
family (ie mum, dad, brothers, cousins, aunties, uncles etc)
friends (ie the awesome team, M)
parents of friends
baulko-ites
people who don't love me: everyone else
family (ie mum, dad, brothers, cousins, aunties, uncles etc)
friends (ie the awesome team, M)
parents of friends
baulko-ites
people who don't love me: everyone else
Sunday Stealing: Blogs
got this from http://sundaystealing.blogspot.com/ yes for pirating memes. yarr
1. How did you come up with your blog title OR what does it mean?
"Polyrhythm" is the name of an electropop hit by the Japanese trio "Perfume". It is the simultaneous sounding of two or more independent rhythms. So in this case it's kind of a metaphor.
2. What are your general goals for blogging?
To express myself, sometimes in ways I don't in actual life.
3. Do people “in your real life” know that you blog and do they comment on your blog OR is it largely anonymous?
How often do you post (x per week)?
That I know of, two people that I know read my blog, and one that I don't know in real life. and then the anonymous people who drop by via google, thanks to my really odd blog titles. The number of blog posts per week vary. somewhere between 1-3 i guess
4. How often do you read other blogs (x per week)?
a lot. google reader tells me that it's 23 today, so maybe 20-60 a week?
5. How do you select blogs to read (do you prefer blogs that focus on certain topics or do you choose by tone or…?)
I like blogs that reveal how people are feeling or thinking, then interesting topics, then funny topics.
6. Do you have any plans to copy your blog entries in any other format, 0r do you think that one day, you’ll just delete it all?
I think I'll just leave them on the internet for my kids/nieces/nephews/grandkids to find someday. If the internet crashes then oh well.
7. What are the things you like best about blogging?
I can express myself in words, and I have time to think about what I'm saying. Then I get to edit that ^__^
8. What are the things you don’t like about blogging?
The blogs I've written in the past. They're just pretty emo in general, and embarassing.
9. How do you handle comments?
Reply, once I come up with something to say. If not, I just leave it until I do.
10. Do you have any burning thoughts to share on blog etiquette?
Narrrgggghh
11. Any desired blog features?
Not that I can think of at the moment
12. Have you suffered blog addiction?
A what now? I think my addiction usually fall under the category of procrastination... so not exactly blog addiction... maybe.
1. How did you come up with your blog title OR what does it mean?
"Polyrhythm" is the name of an electropop hit by the Japanese trio "Perfume". It is the simultaneous sounding of two or more independent rhythms. So in this case it's kind of a metaphor.
2. What are your general goals for blogging?
To express myself, sometimes in ways I don't in actual life.
3. Do people “in your real life” know that you blog and do they comment on your blog OR is it largely anonymous?
How often do you post (x per week)?
That I know of, two people that I know read my blog, and one that I don't know in real life. and then the anonymous people who drop by via google, thanks to my really odd blog titles. The number of blog posts per week vary. somewhere between 1-3 i guess
4. How often do you read other blogs (x per week)?
a lot. google reader tells me that it's 23 today, so maybe 20-60 a week?
5. How do you select blogs to read (do you prefer blogs that focus on certain topics or do you choose by tone or…?)
I like blogs that reveal how people are feeling or thinking, then interesting topics, then funny topics.
6. Do you have any plans to copy your blog entries in any other format, 0r do you think that one day, you’ll just delete it all?
I think I'll just leave them on the internet for my kids/nieces/nephews/grandkids to find someday. If the internet crashes then oh well.
7. What are the things you like best about blogging?
I can express myself in words, and I have time to think about what I'm saying. Then I get to edit that ^__^
8. What are the things you don’t like about blogging?
The blogs I've written in the past. They're just pretty emo in general, and embarassing.
9. How do you handle comments?
Reply, once I come up with something to say. If not, I just leave it until I do.
10. Do you have any burning thoughts to share on blog etiquette?
Narrrgggghh
11. Any desired blog features?
Not that I can think of at the moment
12. Have you suffered blog addiction?
A what now? I think my addiction usually fall under the category of procrastination... so not exactly blog addiction... maybe.
Friday, 27 March 2009
Hey, it's ok to lie to avoid hurting someone's feelings right?
I'm not going to see 1.5 spot, because I can't be bothered. Sure I feel guilty about declining one of the parts, and sure I feel guilty that I'm not more involved in the club. That doesn't make me anymore inclined to make plans to go see it. So I'm going to lie and say that I was busy. It's not so bad, because I don't know the people in the drama club that well.
And also, one of my new psych buddies at uni is having relationship problems. It wasn't my place to ask, but I did. And there's so many problems I don't even know where to begin to help her out.
I figure she's a girl, so she'll be needed some kind of emotional reassurance. She wants someone to tell her it'll all be ok, and that it will all work out. So I did.
I lied. Most highschool relationships don't survive the transition to uni. This also includes friendships. Most long-distance relationships don't work out. Most people realise that they don't actually know their partner that well after the initial flood of hormones goes away.
Statistically, her relationship is destined to fail. I could work out the probability of it happening.
Friendships don't really last into uni either. It's either a success (π) or fail (1-π). The success rate is approximately 2/15. The Bernoulli distribution indicates that in general, there's a right skew, i.e. you lose most of your friends. I actually punched this into Excel, and that's what I got.
It's kind of sad really.
We tell each other lies everyday. It gives us hope and happiness. Without happiness we are depressed. Without either happiness nor hope, we are suicidal. Hence we tell each other lies to keep each other alive.
But hey, that's ok. Because in the long run, surviving is all that matters.
And also, one of my new psych buddies at uni is having relationship problems. It wasn't my place to ask, but I did. And there's so many problems I don't even know where to begin to help her out.
I figure she's a girl, so she'll be needed some kind of emotional reassurance. She wants someone to tell her it'll all be ok, and that it will all work out. So I did.
I lied. Most highschool relationships don't survive the transition to uni. This also includes friendships. Most long-distance relationships don't work out. Most people realise that they don't actually know their partner that well after the initial flood of hormones goes away.
Statistically, her relationship is destined to fail. I could work out the probability of it happening.
Friendships don't really last into uni either. It's either a success (π) or fail (1-π). The success rate is approximately 2/15. The Bernoulli distribution indicates that in general, there's a right skew, i.e. you lose most of your friends. I actually punched this into Excel, and that's what I got.
It's kind of sad really.
We tell each other lies everyday. It gives us hope and happiness. Without happiness we are depressed. Without either happiness nor hope, we are suicidal. Hence we tell each other lies to keep each other alive.
But hey, that's ok. Because in the long run, surviving is all that matters.
Thursday, 26 March 2009
the world around me makes me feel so small
am i alone now? in the depths of night, all are asleep and i am suffocated by the silence. am i lonely? in the crowd of nameless faces, and faceless names, one melts into the other, and the others melt into one. am i alive? a drug fuelled high, a sugar solution rushing through my veins. am i dead? my limbs numb, my thoughts are slowed. do i push people away, or do they push me? i have no control, the merged faces, mean nothing to me, i mean nothing. i am nothing.
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