The old me is dead and gone

Well, I'm learning to look at emotional setbacks objectively, and to see failure as feedback on how to be successful in the future. I've promised myself that I will be kinder to myself, and that I will stop wasting my time.

I know that the transition from high-school to university is difficult, and it makes you vulnerable to feeling lonely and clingy, but I can always count on my old friends being there eventually, and I can make new friends.

I used to think that being in a relationship was the ultimate goal. Since I was 10 or so, I've found someone every year to be infatuated with. Now, I know that while being in a relationship is desirable, I don't need it. It can wait.

I'm smarter, older, a little bit wiser. I'm not lazy, and I can do anything if I want to. I think I'm a slightly different person to who I was last year.

LAN-ning

Yeah, I know lanning isn't technically a verb, but it might as well be. I went to Epping today to play Left for Dead at the Red and Blue internet cafe (next to the Gloria Jeans). It was pretty epic. Seriously, blowing the heads off of zombies is insanely fun. There's just something really awesome about hearing moaning zombies, computerised gun shots, the surprised cries of your team-mates (ahh... xerox... "uh... guys... a little help here =(" *lies squirming on the floor in pain*)

MWAHAHAHA

I think I'll learn how to play Starcraft next. Apparently, carriers are the best unit oO

After 2.5 hours of killing zombies, we went to lunch at some Asian place nearby. It was ok, serving sizes were quite good, but it was a little expensive.

Spanker had to go home for band practice, so we waited with him for a bit while he was waiting for the bus. While we were waiting, Spanker, awesome dude's twin, and morgan started beat-boxing. Yay! We probably looked like hoons.

Then we caught the train to Parra to go watch a movie. We split off into two groups, Pendragon, Awesome dude's twin, Morgan, Aix went off to watch Monsters vs Aliens, and me and awesome dude went to go watch The Boat that Rocked. Guess which movie rocked?

Lots of fun today. Although, I should probably get some work done soon =/

=D

I figure if I don't eat, I don't have to puke it back up again.

WIN

No, but seriously, since the holidays started and I've been sitting on my ass doing a lot of reading (Damn you LAW114!! *shakes fist*), I've stopped compulsively eating in general.

I'm not starving myself. Seriously, I eat when I'm hungry.

But I only feel hungry like twice a day now. Sometime around 11am, and then at about 8pm.

I think it has something to do with my blood sugar levels. While I was at uni, I had too much sugar and caffeine, and just crashed at the end of the day.

Yeah.

Christmas Eve and Christmas happy haps.

So yesterday Glamaling had a Christmas party that I was invited to, but to which I chose not to attend, for a few reasons:
1) I didn't want to go
2) I was working
3) My camera was broken
4) I had already been out on Saturday, Sunday and Monday of this week, and I didn't want to push it with my parents.
5) My parents probably wouldn't let me go, so I told my self I didn't want to go to prevent disappointment.

So instead, I went to work, then came home. I was going to go rockclimbing with my family, but it turns out the place closed at 5, and we got there at 4:30 =S So instead of going rockclimbing, I stayed at home and made kimchi with turnip, which is a new experience. It was just as fun as rockclimbing. Mmm... I can't wait until Saturday, because it'll be ready by then.

So... today is Christmas. I could have been sending off texts to everyone on my mobile phone, or sending off emails, or facebook-wall posting wishing people "merry xmas" but I couldn't be assed. It's a holiday, and I'm not making more work for myself. I have done three constructive things today:
1) Made mango pudding
2) Cleaned my room
3) Made a slideshow of photos

I have done little else but eat, sleep and play guitar.

Yay for holidays.

So Merry Christmas, Happy Hannukah, have a wonderful yuletide, or midwinter solstice, yada yada. I don't really believe in any of these, but it gives me a free excuse to not do anything. Mmm laziness...